God really works in mysterious ways we cannot see nor we understand. He gave His life for us to understand the true meaning of our existence. As He let me understand and realized my worth for showing His goodness and faithfulness to me that made me changed what I am today, far from what I am yesterday. Every time I saw God's beautiful creations with it's Bible Verses or God's Words and Wisdom in it in any social media means, I've always been touched, moved, inspired and motivated. And it deepens more of my faith and love for Him. I was like a little child clinging to Him asking His mercy and forgiveness. He rested my soul in His Words and embrace.
In my 47 years, God has been faithful to me, but at an early age of 14, I started being unfaithful to Him. For the past 30+ years of my life, I've sinned so many times, repented and sinned over and over again. I enjoyed the life of a free person, free to sin and free to do whatever I wanted to. I was so drunk with so much happiness and enjoyment that I almost forgot the most loving and forgiving God who's in charged of so many gifts and blessings in my life. I've been an overseas foreign worker in other country for six years, enjoyed so much the life of being away from home, temptations everywhere, sinning and turning away from Him.
After six years, I returned home and started my own venture in different kinds of businesses, never realizing all the sins and mistakes I've done and still continue doing. What a waste of time and resources. I really believed now that a business that was not offered to Him and prayed for it, will just perish. It was so true, after five years of enjoying the fruit of my business without God, it started shaking and gradually moving down, until my mother got sick, been admitted many times in the hospital and there goes all that I've been working hard for..until all these businesses collapsed not still realizing of turning back to Him, until I lost everything that I've been working so hard for six years.
What a wasted life away from Him, until the realization came. I didn't understand His ways of showing His love and mercy to me, but I felt it, I started talking to Him, crying and asking for forgiveness, I surrendered everything in my life. I've learned holding and reading the Bible by myself, became so prayerful, nobody guided me but the Holy Spirit who's always there leading me in my darkest moment. I became so hungry in His words that I started searching in every way for somebody who can guide me in my spiritual journey, until I found the "Kerygma Family", a virtual spiritual group that lifted me up to be a better person, Bro. Bo Sanchez was a great mentor to me, I was inspired, touched and motivated only by his words, his ministries, his books, his stories and the Kerygma Feast audios and videos I've heard and watched from time to time, and in only a matter of months, I was spiritually healed. And this was the greatest gift of grace I've ever experienced in my entire life from our forgiving God. Nothing is really so impossible when you truly seek Him in your heart.
Right now, I'm still struggling with my faith, I was so thankful God has given me the chance to change the dark side of me and renewed my life in His perfect time. I was so thankful with my spiritual family and community who had helped me in my struggle. The love and support of my family and friends who never lost faith in me, my brothers and sisters in Christ and our Charismatic community, and with all the help of social media tools that had reached me strengthen and deepen my faith more than I could ever imagine. I just want you to pray for me with my struggle through righteousness, may I'll never fall again in all the temptations I'm going to cross and face in my spiritual journey with God. And may this will also serve as an inspiration to all of you who are struggling in life right now, that may His light will shine to you and His gift of grace be upon you and lead you to the right path of your life.
"To God Be All The Glory". Amen!
"God is working in ways we cannot see."
Be blessed,
Nonie f.
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